The rains…

December 5th, 2005

It was a cool night….very cool…infact it was a perfect kinda night everyone would be looking for. No rains, no wind, just a gentle breeze wafting through the air, carrying with it the fragrance of fresh winter flowers, the billion stars in the sky….showering their ray of light on every particle of earth…so much so that i actually drifted into sleep…unknown to me…..dreams enveloping my web of thoughts. Then slowly & unknowingly, i went off into a deep sleep…..merging with my soul….

Then suddenly i woke up….so wide awake that every ounce of sleep that assembled, shattered to pieces. I was starting to sweat. Didn’t have any clue…why was i sweating?? Just as I was thinking, a thunder crashed through, tearing the skies apart with a lightning. Then slowly it started to drizzle…slowly at first…a bit louder then and it continued. After about 20 seconds, the light drizzle became very heavy, falling heavily on my windows. Already puddles of water had formed here and there.

Completely awake now, i got up & went to the balcony to watch the rain. It hit me now, I started to feel the pinch, then the pain…it tore through my heart…it was excruciating now…I was almost in tears. Yes, I knew it. I discovered where it originated. It was also running deep in my subconscious mind.

I was snuggling in my warm blankets sometime ago & woke up sweating…only to think that…they were littered on the roads. Like small children litter broken toys all around the house, the flood-devasted people were everywhere….on the road, on the pavement…every place you could think of. My heart ached seeing them. I was crumbling sensing that I couldn’t do anything more than give away a few shirts and pants. My sub-conscious said, “Every human is born with a purpose, do it now. Its your turn. Do it whole heartedly” as I listened to them patiently.

Things became clear now. Sweating ceased. The crumbling blocks started to rebuild themselves…Its a new life…a great life…a life of giving !!!

21 Responses to “The rains…”

  1. unknown Says:

    hey ,
    thanks for your post…u know ur the first person commented in my post…

    nice..admiring ur mankind….
    my heart paining a lot seeing my tamilians……starving for food..no shelter..no cloths..

  2. Known Stranger Says:

    ya.. eveery pperson is born with a purpose.. but the problem is for someone it takes even their life time to know and realsie the prupose of their living.., though they would have acomplsihed without knowing that. if some one could know it well at early age.. then it would be worth the pain to undertake.

    and hey.. i just scribble yar.. it doesnt get into any poetic grammar of keats or milton or shakesper or wordsworth or forst

  3. Anonymous Says:

    Guy,
    Wish i could write like you did…

    An Euphorious Anonymous

  4. unknown Says:

    leaves me blind… …..what u mean by this?

  5. unknown Says:

    Is my poem making u blind like our known stranger?
    if u going to collect the poems send me a copy too…
    do u knw any groups for tamilians….

  6. Aswin Anand T.H. Says:

    @ammu:
    leaves me blind….well, u have a beautiful style of writing.. and im unable to think in such a style…dats the thing…. 😉

    surely i will mail u the poems…leave me ur email id..btw, r u a male of a female??

  7. Known Stranger Says:

    h h aha ah that scribbling is something i wrote in 2003. just recalled when i wanted to blog something new… hey… i am a cool guy… i dont get carried away for pain yar… i dont get a so painful for such cause. I imagine a situation and feel i am involved as a first person and try to imitate how i would feel if that situation arise

    i scribbled when my friend her gal friend broke offf with me as a first person.

  8. unknown Says:

    Hey Ashwin,
    my new entries will confirm ueverything ….whether am a male or female….tkcare:-)

  9. Vanathi Says:

    Good of you to help them…

  10. unknown Says:

    am a female dude….

  11. unknown Says:

    finally ur clear…u fought with your frd for me?

  12. K Kavitha Reddy Says:

    –>i do not agree with “every human is born with a purpose”.are we really born tht way??isnt our genesis very random??

    yes,life’s purpose doesnt lie in just living it to the extent possible or perhaps in making other’s live.

    we know not what our purpose is till we know what we are.knowing what we are doesnt stem from necessities but from a genuine desire to dwell and explore..

    btw u depicted ur state masterly..kept the flow…

  13. Aswin Anand T.H. Says:

    hi kavitha, what you want to be depends on your goals and how you want to live….ofcourse, its bigger than simply letting others live. Live & let live is a part of it & this post is about that part :-)

  14. logic Says:

    “…we know not what our purpose is till we know what we are..”
    hmm.. our purpose is know wht our purpose is 😉
    uh?wht? u think thts gibberish ? ok! ok! :( i jus wanted to comment :(

    “guess god has a plan for all of us”

  15. K Kavitha Reddy Says:

    @anand

    **what you want to be depends on your goals and how you want to live….ofcourse, its bigger than simple letting others live**

    this whole thing moves around the very meaning of “purpose”.its not a destination which we reach.its a never ending journey.and knowing what we are isnt a single step process.we know new angles of our very own personality every now and then.its a build-up process which proceeds gradually.purposes dont remain static…

    how could i define my purpose and limit my boundary??i would rather be humane in whatever i attempt to do.

    i agree with what u said as above:goals and hw we wanna live decide what we want to be.but yet again,what we want to be is a goal and not a purpose :)

  16. K Kavitha Reddy Says:

    @logic

    :) what confused u??did u mean “the very reason for living is to know why we are living??”

    God never makes plans.he gives us good and bad.it we who has to do the balancing act.we tip there and our life tips too :)

  17. logic Says:

    “guess god has a plan for all of us”
    ..he he..tht was from the movie “constantine”..and btw i think u’ll love the movie “bruce almighty”…watch both the movies if haven’t yet.The latter one is more realistic…both seem to revolve around plan,goal,purpose…whatever

  18. Aswin Anand T.H. Says:

    @kavitha:
    /*
    ….what we want to be is a goal and not a purpose….
    */
    Goal is something you want to achieve E.g. I want to become richest dude in the world ;-). Purpose is, steps taken to make that goal a reality. In all ways they are inter-related. Btw, check out dictionary.com for exact meaning of these words.

  19. K Kavitha Reddy Says:

    purpose has many a contextual meaning.it simply depends on the instance.

    i used purpose implying “reason”.technically speaking a purpose also means a goal.i didnt mean that.

    ***Goal is something you want to achieve E.g. I want to become richest dude in the world ;-). Purpose is, steps taken to make that goal a reality. In all ways they are inter-related***

    steps taken are attempts to reach your goal.how could ya call an effort a purpose???

    to sum up the entire mess,let me tell you-humans arent born with a purpose.to make our life meaningfu,measurable,specific and interesting its we humans who draw goals and define purposes.or there wud hav been no difference between the humans and other living org’s.

    one cant sit and decide wht one’s goals are.as we get along with life,as we put in effort genuinely,as we learn more about ourselves ,we tend to form a real life for ourselves.

    there are plenty of them around us who do things they dont like,but yet continue doing that ‘cos they lack the spark,the fire and desire.

    thats the primary reason behind what i meant whn i said that knowing ourselves is paramount.unless we do that we keep compromising and adjusting.and as long we do that we remain as mortals…forget helping otherss…we cant even help ourselves…

  20. Aswin Anand T.H. Says:

    /*….let me tell you-humans arent born with a purpose…*/

    Thats right

    /*….one cant sit and decide wht one’s goals are.as we get along with life,as we put in effort genuinely,as we learn more about ourselves ,we tend to form a real life for ourselves….*/

    this is also right

    /*….knowing ourselves is paramount….*/

    Exactly…knowing yourselves is the most important thing in life. I guess i had done a little bit of that & I’m able to realise somethings about me. Knowing about yourselves…you get to know what you are, what your potentials are etc. But where does this all start?? You should have the ability to convince your parents that what you are doing is right. Since most of them are sooooo protective of their kids, they forget that they are spoiling their kids life by spoon feeding them in everything & hence…/*….there are plenty of them around us who do things they dont like,but yet continue doing that ‘cos they lack the spark,the fire and desire…*/

    Am i right?

  21. K Kavitha Reddy Says:

    so ya agree whn i say “humans arent born with a purpose ???”.thats an volte-face :)

    self-realisation NEED NOT be a process which starts very early in life( althou its better if it does).our environment influences us tremendously resulting in us forming pre-judices.

    in a nut-shell,we are conditioned.our mind is beaten up only to think of a certain course of action or remedy whn the need arrives.

    as u bought in the issue of “parents” let me make sure that its not an aspect which we can change.perhaps,as parents tmrw we would do the same albeit not in the exact amounts.

    there is a plenty of media diversity around us which influenes us daily-movies,the mass communication systems.it makes an indelible impression on mind.forget about right or wrong,emulation doesnt arrive only from that.

    there are few living examples and we do not have the time to study their lives ‘cos its short of sheen and glitter.again “conditioning plays a role.

    admist all this knowing ourselves is a life-long process.goals is not just about one’s career.its also about one’s life consolidatedly.

    all this isnt bookish knowledge…its personal experience :D:D..so peace out anand..

    my goal presently is to be a CA by 2009.its not the end.later its an MBA frm a premier inst.am yet to know what i really wanna do in life.education is a weapon,ammunition.acquiring it doesnt mark the end but the beginning of the war of life….